Hay. magbebente na ako pero takot pa rin akong magdala o magpakilala ng manliligaw kila Mommy. Ang strict kasi nila, huhu. Kaya ayun, natatakot ako. Pero sabi ni Mommy yung mga ganung bagay dapat raw alam nila so dapat di ako natatakot na sabihin o ishare sakanila lalo na at wala naman raw akong dapat ikatakot.
I’ve been praying for this for a long time now and sana, by Monday pag-uwi ko if matuloy man, sana everything will be alright.
E kasi graduation kanina. :)) Pasintabi sa towel ng kapatid ko. :D
Reality is a world where you are actually in. Tumblr is where your deep feelings, crazy ideas, random thoughts and still other mind-slash-heart-consuming things are in - making its own world. able to interact with other people who found this site as an extension of their own, like what seemed to be yours, too.
I miss blogging - may it be personal stuff, happy-nings, just some photo bombs or what-have-yous that you can post in here. Those late nights where I consume myself with the dashboard issues, trends, etc. Those days I would totally forgot about eating, etc. and of course, lost track of time. Those exciting days where I would dress up properly so that I would look good on a meetup wherever it is & as long as I’m with someone I know.
It’s been a year - even a week seems to be a long time if you base that on T’s dashboard. It feels good to have my real life back on track. I manage my time well. I get to know other people - real people I get to see everyday. I still have some problems with getting lazy to do some task but not lazier when I was an active blogger. I have adjusted very well. Got more time to spend with true people I can rely on anytime. (I’m glad I already have a set of true friends I can really say they’re the truest).
Anyone can blog whatever they want. Yes, I can still have some time to visit this site and achieve an equally-divided time to do so. However, my life is different. I was brought up in a way I would be living different - to study is 1/3 of my life. Yes, everyone studies. But still, mine is a different story.
/my opinion - in it’s very humble way
My most awaited YFL event. Will spend it with my dear friends and for sure, I’ll be meeting new acquaintances :) Simple. alcohol-free party. Yes it is! :) Excited for it on this coming Saturday ♡
My need to finish my grad reqs will be delayed for a while due to my consistent urge of blogging and again.. letting out some thoughts I have in mind.
I guess my life now is what it should and would be if ever I have a FF button. Honestly, I miss being with my “used-to-be” friends. Social life - I don’t really have that. Or maybe I had. Things will never be the same again like it used to. Fact. Things that happened in the past are now only part of the pictures hidden in timelines, albums, etc. Irrelevant.
It’s very frustrating to overthink things and re-think them over and over again. Useless. Thinking that maybe he doesn’t care about you the way that you are to him and having self-pity for being such an idiot for doing and feeling such - very bad.
Random bad feelings for certain people will be forgotten when I wake up tomorrow and when he tells me that everything will be okay. Glad that I have my very own brother-slash-bestfriend-slash-lover in him.
Blah.
Masarap. Masarap sa pakiramdam na medyo nabubuo ka na ulit. Dati kasi, parang ang ingay - ang ingay ng buhay ko, lalo na nung active ako dito.
Pero ngayon, ang tahimik. Hindi na kagaya ng dati na kelangan pag may nangyari ikkwento mo sa lahat. Mas okay pala yung ganun. Itinatago mo lang sa sarili mo yung nangyayari sayo kasi pag nakwento mo parang bawat inch ng happiness na binigay nung nangyari sayo is unti-unting nauubos habang nalalaman ng iba.
Ang sarap ng buhay-tahimik. :)
Darlene Gia Mari Ilagan
Dear Kaps,
Sa totoo lang, magalit ka na o ano, pero natawa talaga ako kahapon nung sinend mo yung message na “Huhu. Kaps. Pansinin mo naman ako o. I don’t know if you’re mad or what :(” kasi hindi ko lang talaga agad nabasa yung bati mo. Kaya, sorry na. Dito ko pa dapat ibubuhos lahat e. Kaya lang medyo nag-alala ako na baka ano ng isipin mo na iniisip ko kaya inuna ko ng ginawa yung sayo.
Kaps, *insert yung mahabang message ko kahapon here* At eto ang iilang dagdag: Okay tayo. Ano ka ba. Hindi lang nagtutugma yung oras naten dahil sa tuwing kakamustahin mo ko ay paniguradong may tinatapos ako, o may iniisip ako, o wala ako sa sarili ko pero okay tayo. Walang nagbago. Mahal pa din kita at mahal mo pa rin ako. Kaya okay tayo.
Isa pa, diba ang lagi kong pangaral dati sayo ay “Be strong.”? Kaakibat ng salitang yan ang mga katagang magtiwala ka sa sarili mo. Kaya sa maniwala ka o sa hindi, alam kong makakayanin natin ang lahat ng pagsubok sa mundo ng medisina. Okay? Smile ka lang lagi ha.
Happy New Year. Mahal kita.
From Paris with love,
Kaps
Ay gusto ko yan. From Paris, take note: silent “s” so it’s Pari. XD Lolwhatever. Hahaha. Sorry naman kasi Kaps diba. Di ko naman kasi naisip na posibleng may ibang reason kung bakit hindi mo nasasagot yung mga pangangamusta ko e.
Anyways, it’s good to know we’re still the same despite the long time we don’t talk that much. Yung sa Med naman. Kita-kita nalang tayo, Kaps! Share sa knowledge and power. Lol. :))
Loveyoutooooooooo >:D<
Kaya wag mo na i-stress ang sarili mo sa kanila. Naku, uban lang abot mo nyan. HAHAHAHA.
Lucky and blessed to have you this 2012. Alam ko hindi mo naman mababasa ‘to e. Hahaha.
Ang cute mo talaga sa last pic ♥ :))
Dear Kaps,
Hello! Kumusta ka na? Ang tagal na rin nung huling kinumusta kita. Pasensya ka na kung hindi ako masyadong nakakasagot sa mga pangungumusta mo. Kadalasan kase, lumilipad ang utak ko o di kaya naman ay may ginagawa ako. Sa totoo lang, namimiss na rin kita at yung dating tayo. Yung mga panahong nag-uusap tayo ng mga bagay na hindi karaniwang pinag-uusapan ng ibang tao—nga pananaw at perspektibo ko at mo.
Dahil kay Ron, nagkakilala’t naging magkaibigan tayo. At ngayon wala na kayo ni Ron, magkakilala’t magkaibigan pa rin tayo. Ang galing no? Hahahaha. Dalang ko lang tumawa sa sulat pero kita mo tumawa ako kase di ko maiwasang maging masaya pagdating sayo. Yehes naman.
Ukol dun sa kakapadalang sulat mo palang sa akin, oo mangangarap ako. Mangangarap tayo. Diba magkikita pa tayo sa med-school? Diba sabay tayong magiging manggagamot? Hindi ko pa nakakalimutan yung usapan nating yun, kala mo.
Pero gusto ko lang talagang sabihing sa maniwala ka at sa hindi, namimiss talaga kita at lahat ng mga bagay na pinag-uusapan natin. Lahat sayo. Salamat at nakilala kita. Naalala mo kung bakit ‘Kaps’? O diba. Kaya hindi ko magagawang magalit sayo anukaba. Di ko lang agad nabasa yung message kaya sorry na ha.
Happy New year, Kaps! Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal.
At dahil bihira akong makatanggap ng ganitong mensahe, reblog.
E kasi naman. Parang hindi mo pinapansin yung mga pangungumusta ko sayo kaya akala ko hindi tayo okay, although matagal na nga tayong hindi nag-uusap.
Di bale, sabay nating tatahakin ang larangan ng panggagamot kahit medyo parang di ako bilib sa sarili kong kakayanan pagdating dito. Hahaha.
Miss na miss na rin kita Kaps. Happy New Year ulit. Mahal din ni ako si ikaw. :)
